Wednesday, August 27, 2008

5 Questions with Abby Latif

I came across Dorothy Snarker's post on 5 Questions with Dorothy Snarker. So I've decided to do my own 5 Questions with Abby Latif.

Q: What is your preferred environment for writing?

A: I like to write on my note book when I'm alone in coffee shops or basically when I'm outdoor, alone. Those are mostly for my poetries. But sometimes, I get instinctive need to write so I can just pour out the words whenever where ever.


Q: What punctuation mark are you fondest of?


A: The dot ... dot ... dot ... It gives a long pause and some time to think.


Q: What punctuation, spelling, grammar, style, or usage error annoys you the most?

A: When people start using those text message language in normal articles and conversations when you can actually correctly spell those words. I hate acornyms and shortforms in sentences. I can never speed-writing when I jot down notes during my studying years. I even write long sentences in my text messages.


Q: If you weren't in your current line of work, what would you be doing instead?


A: Funny to say, I can never imagine myself doing anything else than what I have grown up to be right now, and ironic enough, I never imagine myself to be doing what I'm doing right now. I'm basically doing everything I can, and enjoying it while I can.


Q: What drove you to become a writer?


A: Being able to let my heart speaks for once. I've been told that my writings are alive when people reads it. Its short and simple and full of those dot ... dot ... dot ... What I like most is the ability to share. One too many times, some people drop comments saying that they feel what I write, they feel the sadness, they feel the hollow, they feel the laughter and they feel the love. Thats what mattered most in writing. You can be a top-notch extra-grande Copywriter or a Novel Writer, but if you can't touch hearts with your writings, there's no use, is there?

Sleeping Slut

I wrote in my Facebook note about who I wanted to sleep with and we (my friends who replied on that note) agreed that we should do a Top 10 of who we want to sleep with.

And since I'm bisexual, I have a Top 20! Hahahaha, see the perks of being open to choices!

Please note that this list is purely fantasy because there's no way in hell (or heaven) will I ever get these people in bed with me. Plus, I pretty much love my bed being just for myself *in denial alert*.

Anyways, the show must go on ...........


And the lucky ladies are *drum rolls*



1. Angelina Jolie - A World Citizen who played the seductive Persian mother to Alexander The Great??? Who doesn't want to wake up and kiss those tattoos a good morning?

Photo Taken from http://tattodesigns.wordpress.com/2008/03/09/angelina-jolie-tatto-designs/


2. Asha Gill - A great Travel Host, former MTV VJ and a radio DJ with a quick wit. Thumb-sucking good? Well of course!

Photo taken from http://www.ashagill.com

3. Camila Grey of Uh Huh Her - Who doesn't want to be a groupie and sleep with the rock star???? Hehehehehe ... Plus, she's a musical genius!

Photo taken from http://www.sineadcochrane.com/category/photos/

4. Nadya Hutagalung - a former MTV VJ, growing up watching her on TV has never been better. Now she's a mother but I bet she's definitely a MILF (and I'm saying that in a complimenting way).


Photo taken from http://www.info-artis.com/Nadya_Hutagalung/Nadya_Hutagalung.html

5. Natalie Portman - She's not only talented, but she's smart as well. And who can pull off being gorgeous with and without hair at the same time? She laaaaaaaah ...... Hahahaha ....

Photo taken from http://forums.thebothanspy.com/showthread.php?t=7352

6. Rachel Weisz - The quintessential British lady that we droolingly stare on those Burberry ads. (droolllsss......)

Photo taken from http://movies.about.com/od/thefountain/ig/fountaincastphotos/fountainvenice03.htm


7. Leisha Hailey of Uh Huh Her - She plays Alice Peiszecki in the hit TV show, the L Word but what she's more good at is playing the bass for her cool band Uh Huh Her and you just feel like UhHuh-ing both of them, Her and Her bandmate.

Photo taken from http://www.myspace.com/uhhuhhermusic

8. Agyness Deyn - The most quirky supermodel this year and she reminds me of Eve Salvail and Linda Evangelista. Hehehehe .... Now now Abby, such fantasy ....

Photo taken from http://www.sugarscape.com/main-topics/fashion-beauty/get-look/57351/50-agyness-dress

9. Sarah Shahi - Armed with a Revolver and an aviator, the former 'Carmen' in the L Word is now kicking asses in her new TV series 'Life'. Sarah Shahi is definitely hotter than HOT!

Photo taken from http://frontburner.dmagazine.com/2007/06/13

10. Aishwarya Rai - I only watch Bollywood movies if she's acting and I think she's one of India's most prettiest beauty queen! And she's a go getter too, I like go getting women!

Photo taken from http://livinggallery.oneindia.in/v/album01-bollywood-specials/Aishwarya_Rai_at_Cannes_2006_2.jpg.html



Now, how bout we have some MEN on the plate now ....

1. Bono U2 - He's a Humanitarian!!! Thats why he's Numero Uno just like Angelina Jolie!!!!

Photo taken from http://www.kwod.net/pages/237347.php

2. Sean Connery - My dear Sir Sean Connery, believe me, he is that desirable!

Photo taken from http://www.askmen.com/men/entertainment_60/67_sean_connery.html

Photos upload has been undergoing some technical problems. Maybe THE ONE caused this one. hhehehehe...

3. Keanu Reeves (because he's THE ONE!)
4. Brandon Flowers (becos he kills me with his scruffy looks)
5. Jeremy Irons (elegance + sexy, need not say more)
6. Chris Cornell (frontman of Audioslave)
7. Hugh Jackman (remember that scene where he wore a tiny towel playing golf on top of his trailer in Swordfish???)
8. Orlando Bloom (droolll ... droolll ...)

Now ........................ I should get some more bedsheets and pillow cases.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Moving On

Yesterday I did (somewhat) a brave thing. I told a dear friend I once had a crush on her. It might sound just so very simple, but it took my guts to tell her. And I'm glad I did. Because I respect the nice friendship we're building and I'm trying to eliminate any existence of hidden agenda that my subconscious self might still be clinging on to.

Today I had a deep conversation with a friend about love. About falling in love.

I told her I'm tired of it now. And I'm not even 26 years old yet. She told me, when she was in my age, she was running around, waking up at 8am, sleeping at 4am, being in love.

I told her. I have had that. Grand Love. One true love. The love that you'll get to experience once and never allowed to keep.

From now on in my life, everyone that comes by, will be compared to that person.

My friend was quite shocked with this revelation. Although she did admit that when I was in a relationship with a guy, I made the guy looked like he was wearing the skirt in the relationship. Apparently, it has been told by a few other person, that I seem like the dominating partner and I need someone who's more dominating to control me.

What do you do when you're tired of love? Will you submit yourself to the possibility of being in love again?

From now on, nothing can beat those sweet memories I had with the Grand Love. She might be gone from my life, she might have cut me off entirely and left me blaming myself every single night and day.

So, what do you do when love is no longer an option?

I don't settle for less. Thats just me. Thats why I don't go out on dates. For what its worth, my friends will enjoy the benefits of being treated like lovers, by me. I'll cheers to that!

Thursday, August 21, 2008

What the F with the V-Hole????

Owh, I do love the title, thanks to Liz Feldman who constantly provides us with new vocabulary each day. BeeteedoubleU, I think saying "What the F" and calling people or things "A-hole" or "V-hole" is quite decent. Then again, my mind is corrupted, so what I think cannot be implied by general public. Haha.

Well, I wrote in my Facebook note a few days ago about my colleague who posted on his website about Personality Traits by tree types.

Mine falls under September 24th to October 3rd to be as a Hazelnut Tree.

So,

Hazelnut Tree (the Extraordinary)
- charming, sense of humour, very demanding but can also be very understanding, knows how to make a lasting impression, active fighter for social causes and politics, popular, quite moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist, has a precise sense of judgement and expects complete fairness.



What do you know, the "sexually oriented" is so completely a spot-on! Hahaha.

Who needs to define their sexual orientation when they are already "sexually oriented" to even begin with???

I would like to discuss the traits one by one and which fits me the most.


Charming - hurm ........... I do like that one. Of course I'm going to narcissistically admit myself to be rather charming but I got a whole ON/OFF switch on that. Meaning, one minute, I can be charming, the next, a total V-Hole.


Sense of Humour - Now this is interesting. Would like to share my latest FB note with you:-

On [not] being Funny

I don't know whether I'm funny or not. Maybe annoyingly pathetic.

The other day, I was stopped by the bouncer at Funtheque as I was entering.

Bouncer: Boleh tengok apa dalam beg tu? Can I see whats inside the bag?
(eyeing my black cloth sling bag - okay, I don't know what exactly its called)

Abby: Errr, boleh. Errr, yeah.

Bouncer: Apa ada dalam beg ni? (misai garang) What do you have in here? (fierce mustache man)

Abby: (muka innocent) Errr, ada bekas bekal nasi lemak bawak gi ofis tadi. (innocent face) Errr, my lunch box I brought to the office.

Bouncer gave me a weird look and let me go up to the club.

Muid was laughing like hell.

Me, I just find it a normal innocent statement I let out once awhile.

Now, you judge my sense of humour. Maybe it doesn't sound so funny in those Italic-translated-English but what the H. I am not usually funny but most of the time, I appear as a laughing stock to most of my friends and well, its good to make people laughs even if you appear tad too foolish making fool of yourself.


very demanding but can also be very understanding - Yeap! Very! Thats why the last girl I fell in love with ditched me from her life. I was too demanding even though I appeared understanding.


knows how to make a lasting impression - Hurm, this I wouldn't know. But a lot of times I bumped into people who knows me, recognises me, but I couldn't remember who they were or where did I meet them. Or thats just my 3-seconds dorry fish memory.


active fighter for social causes and politics - Yes sir! Thats why my first job was with an NGO and my goal is to work with the United Nations. Well the latter has slightly changed but I still believe that human beings are sent down as guiders and helpers to their people and friends.


popular - Crap! I'm not popular .... Hehehehe. But some of my friends are and I'm happy for them.


quite moody - Hell yeah bitch! I am a blardy moody V-Hole!


sexually oriented - My most favourite trait! A Hazelnut tree who is sexually oriented? Hell Yeah! Men, women, I'm Game! Lets do a Threesome, or a Fourgy!!! Hahahahaha.


honest - Yes I am. But Truth hurts and so does honesty. Some people don't like it. They have 'secrets they cannot tell people' and they 'need not explain themselves'. (Those 2 phrases came from two people who actually deserves one another, good luck to them! haha)


a perfectionist - Not really. I do have OCD and sometimes I'm Anal, but not really a perfectionist all the time. I'm very flexible.


has a precise sense of judgement and expects complete fairness - Yes! Most definitely. Unlike some people who loves leading people to false assumptions, I tell it all out, maybe not to the face but maybe via email or whatnot, but I will always tell my side of the story so people can judge me and I allow them to call me a bitch, a V-Hole, an A-hole or whatever they wish to because they are matured and an individual of their own. But yeah, thats the diplomat in me.


Well thats it. Enjoy your own trees people!!!

Monday, August 18, 2008

when should I stop all these nonsense?

"We humans have two great problems: the first is knowing when to begin, the second is knowing when to stop." - Paulo Coelho in The Zahir.


And so, we begin to think about life. About the things that made us smile. Things where hope clings like a thread on a needle. Fragile, at anytime it can just fall off and you need to put on your BIG glasses to put it back in the needle hole again.

Hope clings like a thread on a needle. And we, hopeless people, tried hard to cling to hope.

Wishful thinking. Those words are pretty often told by friends to me. Being brave and strong to be feeling things I'm not allowed to feel anymore. Because they fear I might do something foolish. Like ruining a friendship. Again.

In times like these, my heart become restless. Wanting so much to feel the forbidden emotions. Emotions which comes in the form of love. Not just a sappy romantic love. But a stronger version of love. Where I, Abby, at anytime, will protect and be a happy slave to the person I've fallen in love with.

But its forbidden. I know a few people are so ready to whack me on the head. I know the consequences of my actions if I ever voice out my feelings to the person I wanted to tell it to the most.

Where's the fullstop? When can we be able to put a switch on feeling LOVE?

I've been told by people that they love me when all they did was just talk cock.

I've told people I love them and they get disgusted with me, or block me on Flickr.

What gives.

Abby, love for you is very dangerous. You know whats at stake here. Friendship, you're putting your friendship in jeopardy.

Who likes to gamble?

I don't. I don't like to place bets. I don't gamble. I'm an analyst. I analyses the risk. I tried hard to think what people would think at every situation or issues that arises. Well, I tried. Some people like to jump on trains and be care free. I step on it carefully. Because if I fall down, how can I protect the ones I love from falling down?

We're back to love again. Sappy hopeless love (shit) fool.

My mind is all messed up. If only. If only. *wishful thinking*

Human's sexual preferences are at equilibrium. A friend told me. *wishful thinking*

What if. What if.

What is equilibrium?

"A condition in which all acting influences are canceled by others, resulting in a stable, balanced, or unchanging system."


*wishful thinking*

I should give myself more projects. Yes. I should run. Yes. I should finish my book. Later.

Procrastinate.

Don't tell yet. Give more time.

Don't tell at all. Don't ruin it.

What if. If only. Equilibrium. *wishful thinking*

Okay. I shall call it a night.