a moment with her

its 11.30am. the office is getting cold. outside doesn't look like its hot enough to warm her thoughts. she's already halfway done with her second coffee of the day. biscuits for breakfast. and a nicotine stick on the way to work earlier. everything seems fine in reality.

her subconscious disagree.

inside, she feels hollow.

rindu itu perasaan apabila kehilangan seseorang.

thats what she's been told. and thats how she feels at the moment. lost. hollow.

her eyes scanned through thousands on words on the desktop monitor this morning. but none took her mind of the person. that certain person.

she jokes and smiled at co-workers. but nothing took her mind of the person. that certain person.

they told her, all she need is time. she'll get over it.

some said, don't give up, not just yet.

she once wrote that

"Those who left with goodbyes doesn't haunt our thoughts as much as those who slips away in silence."

at the time she wrote it, it didn't meant as much. It meant a lot to her friends at the moment who kept telling her it was a brilliant quote that they can relate to so much. she said thanks and let them quote it, for she felt no association whatsoever with the saying.

now, it goes round and round her head.

at least say goodbye. and let me hug you for the very last time.

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