the one after a long pause

smart people knows when they make mistakes.
stupid people learns from the mistakes they make.

something I thought of while driving. when something burned my thighs as reaching UPM Serdang toll. heh.

firstly, I would like to thank my cousin Fatin for giving me such a sweet comment. to inspire is just overwhelming which I try to not take account in any occasion people calls me inspiring. I am a lost soul whose trying hard doing good in this world. sometimes I fail. and at those times, I know its not worth knowing that I inspire people. becos I'm the least person you'd expect to inspire from if you bump into me on the streets. seriously. I don't appear at anyways nice and soothing to look at, let alone inspire or become anyone's muse. and I have a non-piercing gaze. just a nauseating one.

as I'm stealing some time to write before I bury my face on the excel database which have been a part of my working life now, I'd like to reply some comments here.

muid, work-like-whore-licks, what are you trying to say??? I don't know how whore licks. I know horlicks tho! hehehehe ....

zewt, yes, a modern slave. but as I pledge myself into slavery, submitting to the needs and wants of the higher level, I secretly enjoy and took, I mean takes pleasure of everything. S&M in the working world. definitely.

the weekend of good. Cosmic Cell have been a dear to not sulk and fail or die on me, at least save my budget in some sense. I've gotten some new bedsheets and comforter, so bedtime have been good. Plus, my bed is by the window and as I was lying to sleep last night, I was facing to the moon. how cool is that!!! sleeping with the moon. yes. now I dont sleep alone anymore. had my Cosmic Transporter serviced. changed all the bloody filters which I have to take note next time, on their names, descriptions and functions. I want to get some car sticker done to label my Cosmic Transporter. or maybe I just spray it. any suggestions??? hehehehe....

Went to TMPoint in Taman Maluri. Complaint on the services, since my internet have not been transferred to the new line. Bloody Telekom people. Apparently, my line transfer to the new address is still at stage one after freakin' ONE MONTH!!! So, sesiapa yang bekerja dengan Telekom Malaysia tu, let me say this, your services are inefficient and suck big time!!! But having said that, I still have to subscribe to the services. Yes, I'm a bloody hypocrite. At least I admit it. And I say my mind.

this coming week would be another working week. but truth be told, I am actually looking forward for it.

I told my mom, I have decided not to get married. My dad told me, God will decide on my 'jodoh'. I told my mom, rather than wasting a whole 40k for a wedding, I better get myself some diamond earrings, some gadgets, or maybe even a new car or a new house. Thats more satisfying than adding a husband, a marriage and tons of rubbish in my life. she laughed but have no further comment. Neither did my dad.

No, I have nothing against marriage. In fact, with my baby fetish, I am very much looking forward to get pregnant (legally that is) and have babies.

But, I'm just disappointed and lost hope in any male love relationship coming my way and I think, its time to take a longer pause in that department.

pauses are good.

time for you to breathe in ... and breathe out ...

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