the curse

they say once you start lying, you can never stop. Liar Liar. It has been made into a movie. Kecik kecik membohong, besar besok mencuri. yes. Black Eyed Peas sang it. Diana King sang it. Its all lies. Big Fat Liar.

Kecik kecik berbohong, bila besar mencuri. I use to steal money when I was younger. Yes, those piggy bank money until it got to my dad's wallet. I've learned my lesson pretty well. In my case, kecik kecik mencuri, bila besar hebat membohong.

These are things I'm not proud of. Nor have I regretted. If I didn't steal, I wouldn't have gotten myself caught and punished and then learned my lesson. I wouldn't know whats right and whats wrong and consequences of my actions. But I'm not proud of it either. No, it was nothing to be proud of.

So, the goody-two-shoes, miss you're-so-farking-nice abby is not a nice girl. In fact, she has a lot of hidden agenda. she's a hypocrite. and above all, she's a liar. Not a big fat liar. Maybe a tanned slim liar. Hahahaha.

The curse is, lying has become a part of me. Sometimes, it came to me automatically, instinctively, without even giving it a thought. puff, there goes one big fat lie to pollute the sincere and honest world.

last night, someone asked me what lie I've constructed for one particular situation. I told her, I can't reveal the lie. If I tell anyone, it'll lose its magic. Yes, there's magic to lies to, not just fairy tales. hehe. yes, thats how far I treasure this superpower I have on lying. I'm not Wonder Woman or Invisible Girl. I'd be The Lying Bitch. Hahaha. With some cute sexy outfit to top Wonder Woman of course.

a friend asked me once, "why lie. just tell the truth". there's such sincerity in her voice and I can tell she can count her fingers how many times she had lied to her parents. If I were to count fingers, it'll be the fingers of all visitors in Midvalley on a public holiday. Hehehehehe. Anyways, I told her, "because the truth will not only hurt my parents, but hurt me as well".

what you don't know won't hurt you. so lie. to be unhurt. (",)

Definition
3. caused by or evidencing a mentally disturbed condition: a pathological liar.

so, I'm mentally disturbed then, as I am a pathological liar. then again, there's not many who aren't farked up in their mind right.

once, in a International Management class, the new lecturer was looking for someone to be appointed as class monitor. Becos I was going on and on with my girls on how cute this lecturer is (who now we have yet to determine his orientation since its very confusing), they was eagerly to propose my name. The lecturer came up to me and asked, "Owh, you're Abby is it?" I nodded (he's handsome okay! baldy with glasses, what more can I ask for!!!). "Okay then, you'll be the class monitor. You do look trustwothy.".

yes. a verification of my trustworthiness from this simple geeky look that I have. First impression says all? I don't know.

lantas, tersipu sipu, saya menjadi class monitor untuk subject tersebut.

did he know that we, I mean, I, secretly snapped his picture, the first 10 minutes he was in the class, with my fellow girlfriends? Someone once said I look cheeky. Was that one of the attributes of trustworthiness?

back to the subject, the curse of lying.

yes. this goody-two-shoes and miss nice-girl is just a facade.

To the people who constantly think and said it to my face that I am a very nice girl thanks for voluntarily being deceived.

Well. I am actually nice. But being a manipulative lying bitch is much more my forte.

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(so, I realised that when I write hopeless sappy mushy stuff, I get like 150 visitors a day, but when I write like this, being the original me to accommodate people who think I should write about other stuff, my visitor's rate is at 30 visitors per day. So thank you, thank you very much).