to compensate

as I won't be in on the morning till after lunch tomorrow, and today is holiday but I'm in the office for a quick stop, I reckon I write some stuff.

its been awhile since I've started writing. and technically, I didn't improve. yes, a new word here and there, the ability to detect typos and so forth, but the writing technique is still the same.

and as I saw adik yasmin's comment for my previous post, that she's been reading my blog for a year now, as flattering as it is, I don't know whether I have managed to give readers the reading pleasure of staying with me all these while.

I know Farisa is so gonna kick my ass for this, as she told me I am a good writer and how she loathe the fact that I always think I'm not good enough.

I know I'm good. But as good enough I am for myself, I'll never be good enough for other people.

But thats the issue that's been in the head of probably a lot of people. Are we good enough for people. As we question that, we are actually stating or sending one particular vibe that we are unaware of, which is "are people good enough for us?"

so, those who kept questioning themselves, humbling themselves to the point of annoying others with their modesty, are actually vain and a narcissist in disguise.

having said that, yes, I'm vain and also a self-confessed narcissist.

tetapi....

kadang kadang orang salah tafsir karya karya saya yang sering diperlihatkan sebagai terlalu terbuka dan terlalu peribadi untuk dikongsi dengan para pembaca.

di kala itu, saya tidak boleh berkata apa apa dan cuma mampu tersenyum.

those are are transparent and wouldn't mind sharing and emoting their feelings, are actually those who have a deeper and darker side of them people would never notice.

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