the silence.

where have you been?

she smiled. she slowly reached for my hand. and clutch it. firmly. with love. I can feel the love running from her veins, touching mine. the blood vein connects and flows endlessly. we're one.

I forgot that I just asked her a question. I forgot what question I asked her. I forgot why I would ask her a question.

I was so taken by the rush of blood. the warm blood. from one vein to another. but from a different body. it became one. there's no A or B or O type. there's just one. and we're sharing it.

I lean my head on her shoulders. it went up and down following the rhythm of her breath, inhaling, exhaling.

I took her hands to my mouth and kissed it. I want to feel her on my lips. I want her to feel my warm lips.

we sat there. in silence. sharing the rush of blood. sharing the warmth of hands. sharing the silence.

time stand still. air didn't move. something magical happened.

I love...

no, it didn't matter.

words will only spoil everything.

she slowly kiss my eyebrow, first the left, then the right.she land her forehead on mine and whispered something. I can barely hear it. I didn't want to ask for her to repeat it.

no, it didn't matter.

repeating will only spoil everything.

I got to go baby.

Where?

I just have to go.

Take me with you.

No, I can't.

Take me. Please.

No baby. Its not fair. Thats not fair.

I ...

no, it didn't matter.

words will only spoil everything.

I felt helpless.

I can't do anything.

I just sat there and watch her leave.


She was not there when I woke up.

She was never there, even from the beginning.