dancing about architecture
talking about love is like dancing about architecture.
that was the tagline in the movie 'Playing by Heart'. how true can it be? like Joan (Angelina Jolie) said, "but that ain't gonna stop me."
yesterday, I called an old senior of mine, back from high school. a great lady who has been one of the reason for me to smile and be merry during my terrible high school years. nope, high school wasn't that terrible, I've gotten the privilege to make some decent life-long friends out of it.
as the night settled in, and the morning breeze started to fill the air, I was actually in the middle of the KL friday night galore when I texted her. She was so worried, noting that I wasn't that well in health. Then, she called me. Just for the sake to know that I won't be alone. Until I got back to my bedroom, when the line was disconnected, I called her again to bid a proper goodnight and to thank her for just, being the reason a sick girl to smile in the middle of the morning. Before we hung up, she said, "I love you so much." I replied, "I love you too."
its been awhile since I've uttered those words.
I used to be that affectionate person, who relentlessly giving and giving those warm gestures, affectionate hugs and whatever within my means. I used to say I love you to most of my friends when I hung up the phone with them.
lately. it has been pretty tough for me. maybe becos the person I would want to love most, appear very distant, no matter how close we are seated beside each other, even through hugs, I can feel the distance, the space that grew wider and wider pushing us both apart from each other. I, myself, have turned into a bitter person. who, lost the meaning of affection. if I was a dancer, I'd be out of my rhythm. if I was an architect, I've spilled coffee on my blueprints. thats how it feels. I feel sad all the time. even though I laugh and I joked around. its not the same.
last night was good. despite everything else. everything happens for a reason. maybe it was to remind me, to be less bitter, less sad, and tell those I love, that I do love them, even it can get irritating and annoying at times.
that was the tagline in the movie 'Playing by Heart'. how true can it be? like Joan (Angelina Jolie) said, "but that ain't gonna stop me."
yesterday, I called an old senior of mine, back from high school. a great lady who has been one of the reason for me to smile and be merry during my terrible high school years. nope, high school wasn't that terrible, I've gotten the privilege to make some decent life-long friends out of it.
as the night settled in, and the morning breeze started to fill the air, I was actually in the middle of the KL friday night galore when I texted her. She was so worried, noting that I wasn't that well in health. Then, she called me. Just for the sake to know that I won't be alone. Until I got back to my bedroom, when the line was disconnected, I called her again to bid a proper goodnight and to thank her for just, being the reason a sick girl to smile in the middle of the morning. Before we hung up, she said, "I love you so much." I replied, "I love you too."
its been awhile since I've uttered those words.
I used to be that affectionate person, who relentlessly giving and giving those warm gestures, affectionate hugs and whatever within my means. I used to say I love you to most of my friends when I hung up the phone with them.
lately. it has been pretty tough for me. maybe becos the person I would want to love most, appear very distant, no matter how close we are seated beside each other, even through hugs, I can feel the distance, the space that grew wider and wider pushing us both apart from each other. I, myself, have turned into a bitter person. who, lost the meaning of affection. if I was a dancer, I'd be out of my rhythm. if I was an architect, I've spilled coffee on my blueprints. thats how it feels. I feel sad all the time. even though I laugh and I joked around. its not the same.
last night was good. despite everything else. everything happens for a reason. maybe it was to remind me, to be less bitter, less sad, and tell those I love, that I do love them, even it can get irritating and annoying at times.
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