again. karma.

So lose not heart, nor fall in despair: for ye must gain mastery if ye are true in Faith.
- Surah Ali Imran, Verse 139 -

things are picking up.


Jakarta trip, confirmed. Leave, confirmed. Good company of friends such as Oya, Emi, Alvaro not mention Atilia and her entourage, confirmed. Old people to look after me so that I won't get overboard, trust strangers and sleep around, confirmed. Atilia singing some of my favourite songs, confirmed. Photography on the streets of Jakarta, confirmed. My beloved brother Muid to tag along with me, confirmed.


I've sorted out some issues. I'm now single but I do adore the friendship I have with him. If there's possibility, we'll take steps forward. If not, we'll be good friends. For this moment, I have no desire to start a new relationship. I have no desire for dating. I have issues within that I need to confront with. I have guilt within I need to punish myself with. And I need to force this bitterness out from my heart. It had become a black and bitter heart.


APART FROM THAT, my first, ever so simple, corporate print ad design is in THE MALAYSIAN Accountant (Journal of the Malaysian Institute of Certified Public Accountant). With my pictures! With my own personal amateurish pictures! Its so simple. But its my design. Just like the postcards that I designed for Merdeka 50: A Celebration of Malaysian Art. Its nothing cos it uses the artists artwork images. But its my friggin design and I don't have shit knowledge in designing.




And I'm worth $18, 745 in Friends On Sale application on Facebook. Have been bought by many others (whom which I paksa beli every freaking morning).


And my lovely colleagues brought me to this Restoran Kader in Leboh Ampang for my first banana leaf rice experience. We took the train all the way from KL Sentral to Masjid Jamek just for lunch. It was quite fun riding the train with 2 guys. And I forced Ron to take pictures of me with the banana leaf using his new camera phone because I didn't bring my camera with me. Ron with his usual "argh, girls" look obliged with "Okay, SMILE!". Its funny that I had 2 scoops of rice when the guys had only 1. Diet konon! Piiirrraaahhhh!

_{One with the banana leaf.}

_{One with the rice and side dishes.}

I'm 25 and things are picking up. Its worth the nights I cried. Its worth the faith people have in me.


Alhamdulillah. I hope for the best in your lives. Yes, especially you.


_{on a personal note, I don't think Karma is questioning god's qada' and qadar. Karma is just a perception of what goes around comes around. The fact that its being introduced by other faith should not be taken seriously. Because in the end, we do believe that bad energies given out will be brought back to you, vice versa. Maybe thats how I perceived Karma. Just an explanation. No intentions of being defensive.}