heartbreaks

sometimes it hurts, and at the same time, you smile
heartbreaks are painful, but some are worth while
if things happen for the best, you just cannot deny
heartbreaks will happen, if not once, maybe a couple of times.


its hard to be erased from someone's life
when love is the only thing you've pledged yourself to strife
but there will come a time when life is like throwing a dice
even though you've tried your very best to be nice.


and so today I read back the card
even though trying to read it apparently is hard
my heart is like an aim, you hit with a dart
but what do you care, when its not your heart.


and the card reads:-

When I hear someone talk about loyalty,
I think about you.
There have probably been times
when it wasn't easy to be my friend,
times when it would have been
a lot more convenient
to let me sort out my problems on my own.


There were times when
you were willing to drop everything
to talk to me on the phone
or give me a helping hand,
times when you put aside your own worries
to help me through mine.


You did it because friendship isn't just
a matter of convenience to you.
You know that it's a full time job
when it's done right.


You have always
stood by me,
and I just want to
thank you
for being
that kind of person,
for being
that kind of friend.


-Suzanne Berry-

And so tonight, I realised
I was never a loyal or a good friend
and I never tried to put a fight
rather than retaining the magic, all I did was to drive us apart.


And so I'm sorry
and I hope you're happy with not having me around
to hurt you with my sarcasm
to annoy you with my drama
to burden you with my demands.


Even though tonight missing you kills me slowly
But at least I know you're living a better life
Away from me.