Lovely

I am very very happy. Its Tuesday and I'm already very very happy. Yesterday was a good start, I think I posted about it. Despite my shoulders and legs aching, I was seriously motivated with my *cough* 10 sit-ups. But thats beside the point. I woke up early and thanks to mama who's on leave for the whole week, I got to go to work kissing her cheeks. It has been awhile doing that. I should reconsider on moving out I guess.

Yes, the moving out part. I was planning to move out and rent out on my own starting November. Friends have different views on this. Some would celebrate my having my own place becos, yes, despite everything else, I will always end up being the designated driver, or the place where everyone crashes. I am very much homely. I know so. People would think that when I get my own place, I will most certainly be a party animal. But it was proven, I won't. I will always have sleepovers and tv marathons at my place, anything to keep me on the couch, "preferably" with loved ones. I am the kind of person who would order pizza, watch movie marathons at home with lots of vanilla coke and end up snuggling close to someone under my comforter.

Another view is that, why throw away such convenience, of having to freeload of my parents? Well, of course it is very much comfortable and practical. Living with the parents. Pigging out the fridge. Not washing my own dishes since there's the maid to do it. And lying down on the nice comfy sofa and enjoying the flat LCD screen TV without care in the world. I shall not talk about laundry since the past month, the washing machine is broken and I have been hand-washing my own clothes (its for pumping my hand muscles, yes. It is) aside from sending some to the dry-cleaners. I have considered living by my own since I was 14, thrown to the boarding school, then when I did my diploma, then when I did my degree. I love living on my own, paying my own bills, buying things for home, *cough* cooking. Hey, I did cook ok! Hahaha. I remembered back in Shah Alam, my house is the smoking parlor for my friends in between classes. Not to mention napping place. I guess, I should have just made spare keys for them, haha. Yes, I am THAT accommodating! I have become one of the laziest person I know since I moved back living with my folks. Of course I enjoy my nightly hugs and kisses with my BIG baby brother (13 is still a baby!) and my frequent conversations with my teenager sister. Of course I enjoy those little conversations I have with my dad. And sometimes, having to lie down on my mom's lap. I am very much pampered with touches.

But yeah, in September, I'll be 26. Progression is needed. Maybe as accused of immaturity, I might not be of the "mature" standards some people have put out there. But still. Maturity lies in knowing whats wrong and whats right. Being wise lies in choosing what's right over what's wrong. Of course, choosing to "disrespect" and "backstab" friends is considered "wise" and "mature" by some people. I won't even go there, if not I will be bombarded with some unexpected Y!M messages. Hahaha.

Anyways, I was talking about how wonderful today was. I started the day nicely, bathing at 6.15am *bbrrrrrr* and having to get blessings from the AlMighty early in the morning is refreshing.

And yes, 20 SIT-UPS TODAY!!! With some stretches and muscle straining exercises for my abs! Nell asked me, why this sudden need for exercising. It just feels good. Back in 1998, I used to do 200 sit-ups per day on average until 2000. I used to have a 4-pack abs. So, I need to go back there. And being disciplined somehow takes me back to my old self. Yes, thanks to my "kaput"ed lappie, I have now gone back to reading myself to bed routine.

Now, let me share you my pride and joy, Viewed for 137 times on Flickr with 9 people choosing it to be among their Favourite picture, This is my version of Serene Surrender. Taken by Han Ghazi at the swimming pool at her condo, who initially came up with the creative concept, and freestyling pose and multi-exposure editing done by me.

I tell you this.
I have nothing more to hide.
and Nothing else to lose.

I tell you this.
I give you all that I have.
Faith, Trust and Honesty.

with this I pledge.
my surrender.
in serenity.

Serene Surrender by Abby Latif