real happiness is not complicated at all

I am quite excited for the KLUE Urbanscapes. I know a lot of my friends are going to be there to give support. Oya, Emi, Gjie, Fynaz, Suzie, Yana, Faris, Nadiah, Nell, Ein, Dina, to name a few. So excited that the whole 12-hour event will not be tiring at all. Quite eager to get hugs and affection from everyone. Not to mentioned the KLickr gang as well. Am so proud of their Time Lapse project and Adi did a great job with the video compilation. Also Anna Rina, Erna Dyanty and Asyraf Lee on their personal photos under the KLUE 24-hour photo project. Great great bunch of loving people with undying support for each other. Who said having large amounts of friends is nuisance. Every single person must be treated as an exclusive individual friendship.

Am also planning to have some celebratory drinks after that (yelah, dah gaji kan). Am excited to record it on video for Nadi and planning to call her on the day. I don't know how the charges are going to be like calling to New York, but am so excited I couldn't care less (plus I just upgraded my plan to a postpaid plan, haha). Also excited to watch Mia Palencia and Kokokaina perform! Double adrenaline rush!!!

Ahhh .... what a life. Real happiness is indeed not complicated at all. I thank Muid so very much for the opportunity, love and support he have been given me. I truly love him dearly, especially him being so protective and caring for me of late. We've become each other's support system. I couldn't be more blessed for having him as my brother. Yongie, I love you too. And my parents. I know the riding bus to work is worrying them, mostly on the safety part. But I wanted to prove to myself that I am independent enough. Mama has been quite supportive and abah, quite tolerating. And I'm glad to be able to kiss and hug my little siblings every single day, especially my huge baby brother. Him biting my nose is what I look forward to every single day.

I am most glad to be surrounded by independent successful ladies. Those who doesn't need a boyfriend to go back to for every single issue that arises in their life. It made me strong to think that I'm facing life on my own. Well, behind every successful women is herself. I met Dr. Karina, Dr. Hartini and Dina Zaman over lunch the other day. Out of the blue, Dr. Karina asked me, how old am I. I told them, I'll be 26 in September. Immediately Dr. Hartini blurted out "Wow, such a young talent!". Compared to them, I am no talent at all. Dr. Hartini lived in the States for 20 years and have been doing charity works for homeless and runaway kids ever since. She helself adopted 2 gorgeous kids on her own. Dr. Karina is an editor and researcher for Malaysian AIDS Council and extremely educated in the field, she has just got her PhD. And Dina Zaman, where do I start? One of the most blunt, funny and friendly writer I've ever met. The most obvious relation we share, is our sarcasm and rants over guys. Hahahaha. I can't help but laughing out loud everytime I read her Facebook Notes. Dina often said to me, "like men, but love your job!". She inspires me to be more than I can be. These women work for the best of other people, and they love what they're doing. I remember, when I jumped into the NGO line, some friends told me, it was for me, this path. I live to serve others. Maybe I do. Maybe I don't need to be tied down and attached. I've seen too many of my friends who ditched all their friends away when they get into relationships and at the end of the day, broke up and left with nothing.

Successful Ladies. Hurm .... Not to mention, most of my personal friends. Who work day and night, but have fun in between. Most of them are single, available women who couldn't care less about scoring a man just to fit in society (well, we do have urges). But I noticed, for most of us, family and friends come first. Farah. Works like a dog but indirectly loving it. Still have fun here and there. And regardless how not so often we meet each other, our love for each other grows never the less. I have guy friends who are willing to console me, who hugs me, who shares affection with me.

Maybe to each their own. Maybe some people need only 2-3 people in their lives. Maybe only those 2-3 deemed to give them the sense of belonging they've been craving their whole lives. Maybe for them, the more secret and mystery they keep to themselves, the higher life values to them. I've met them, befriended them, and was ditched from their life. In some way, I understand them. In some other way, I see how we are actually not destined to be friends.


Real happiness is not complicated at all. Family and friends, thats what mattered most. The Lord said that every human being is a "khalifah", sent down by God. Khalifah is not to lead, but to guide each other. We hold out hands and walk together. Some prefer to not held out their hands. Some prefer to chose the most prettiest hands to hold. Maybe by their personal principle, the less hands to hold, the better. For me, I am just embracing what I'm sent down to be. Hold out my hands to everyone who's willing to take them, regardless, and walk through every obstacles in life, together.