The Cosmic Wise and Crappy Words

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Make it Happen

I am a Make It Happen person. I will make things happen. Be it in a good way, or bad. If you bitch me out bitch, I'll bitch you out. If you love me, you'll be getting a whole lot of love from me. I make things happen.

It has been quite a crazy few months. I am loving every second of the chaotic moments.

I love my job. Despite everything else. You feel belong in a way. I was interviewed once and I told my reporter friend that we all search for sense of belonging in the work that we do. I love hanging out with the workmates. It has been great, the bonding. It has been 13 months. I love it.

And my friends. And the loved ones. Ah. We don't spend every moment together, but when we do, we enjoy every minute of it.


I want to write more. There's more to tell bit whats the point of telling.

Those 27 hours were in my mind, like a broken record constantly playing on silver screen at the back of my head.

I don't normally fight for what I want. Because I believe, if its mine, it'll come to me, without force. I'll play along by that rule.

Lots of project.

Do I even have time?

Okay, lets just think about the good things.

Like JAVA JAZZ FESTIVAL 2009 !!!!!!

Will come to the office in my traveling attire, take the bus to LCCT after lunch, board the plane and meet sis. Yes yes yes. I like. I can't wait. 5th March until 9th March !!!!

After that, we'll talk about Koh Samui, or maybe Angkor Watt or maybe Yogjakarta. Yes, traveling is in my books. At least this time around, the plans are made with genuine lovable friends. Hehe.

Am I still bitter? I wish them all the best in marriage life. Enough said. At least some people deserve each other. Okay, enough said.

For me ... big things, big plans, I'll be making on my own, with my own name. I don't sit around wanting to have a force to make me achieve what I want to achieve.


Thursday, January 15, 2009

Just doing it cos I need to update this so-called blog of mine

8 Random facts about me:

i) I am ... a pathological liar.
ii) I still ... can't get her out of my mind.
iii) I'm very much ... restless.
iv) I need ... to breathe.
v) I like ... to buy and keep books but not read them.
vi) I sleep ... sucking my thumb.
vii) My room ... is a mess.
vii) I adore ... my mom (despite everything else).
viii) I don't ... have a computer of my own, not even a laptop. I'm currently using Muid's PC. I don't own a machinery device called a computer. Yes. Don't believe it? Go kiss the wall on your left side.

Should I tag? Or not tag? If I do tag, I tag ....


Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Wasn't Tagged but doing it anyways

16 things about me

1. Sarcasm: It hurts people sometimes, it amuse others on other times, but most of the time, its like the air I breathe I can't live without.

2. Passion: I live my life trying to love the things that I do as passionately as I can.

3. Creative: Very subjective. Creativity comes with being able to think in so many different perspective, not just simply out of the box.

4. Portugese: A language I'd love to be able to master. ;-)

5. Photography: To being able to appreciate the emotions that comes from it. Not just for the sake of superficiality of what and how beauty is captured. What amuse me most is the honesty that you can feel translating from the photographers' eyes to his/her pictures. Not many have that, I've seen so many photographers but no magical honesty that translate from their pictures despite the thousands of dollars worth of gadgets. What a pity.

6. Fitness: Am a fitness freak. I need to have a 4 pack abs and biceps. I use the word "need".

7. Body art: Would love a whole back tattoo, maybe just body art paint. If I were to do a tattoo, I have the word "Cosmic" spelled across the back of my shoulders.

8. Original: My friends. They're not fake. I have successfully eliminate the fake ones from my life. Whats most original about them, is that their sincere love for me, concern for me, and ability to whack my head whenever they feel that I've done something wrong to them, or to whoever. Because they care about the friendship that was built based on sincere trust and love.

9. Health: I hope for it so I am able to be there for my loved ones in times of need. Thats all I wish for.

10. Peace: I deem War as a Crime. And what matter most is when you have a peaceful heart, then only you can transmit the peaceful vibe all around.

11. Philosophy: I am a love foolosoper.

12. Shopping: I don't shop that much. Maybe cos I don't have the money. Money often used to fill in fuel for car to drive around and meet friends.

13. Green: My favourite colour because its one of the peaceful colours. Because I am a peaceful person.

14. Libra: The diplomatic scale allows me to motivate myself with the ability of balancing life. And being born in the Year of Dog allows me to be loyal to my loved ones. Haha.

15. Travel: This year, whats in store for me is Java Jazz Festival 2009 - Jakarta (confirmed), Koh Samui (in plans), and Yogjakarta (in plans). I'm optimistic.

16. If I could, I would like to leave everything I have right now and join Mercy Malaysia and be a humanitarian. But I can't due to serving my parents' wants for me.

Friday, January 09, 2009

Jewish Editor sacked after publishing article

Taken from

This article was sent to Debbie Ducro, an American-Jewish journalist with the Kansas City Jewish Chronicle. She published it, and was fired the next day.

I am a Jew. I was a participant in the Rally for the Right of Return to Palestine. It was the right thing to do.

I've heard about the European holocaust against the Jews since I was a small child. I've visited the memorials in Washington, DC and Jerusalem dedicated to Jewish lives lost and I've cried at the recognition to what level of atrocity mankind is capable of sinking. Where are the Jews of conscience? No righteous malice can be held against the survivors of Hitler's holocaust. These fragments of humanity were in no position to make choices beyond that of personal survival. We must not forget that being a survivor or a co-religionist of the victims of the European Holocaust does not grant dispensation from abiding by the rules of humanity.

"Never again" as a motto, rings hollow when it means "never again to us alone." My generation was raised being led to believe that the biblical land was a vast desert inhabited by a handful of impoverished Palestinians living with their camels and eking out a living in the sand. The arrival of the Jews was touted as a tremendous benefit to these desert dwellers. Golda Meir even assured us that there "is no Palestinian problem".

We know now this picture wasn't as it was painted. Palestine was a land filled with people who called it home. There were thriving towns and villages, schools and hospitals. There were Jews, Christians and Muslims.

In fact, prior to the occupation, Jews represented a mere seven per cent of the population and owned three per cent of the land.

Taking the blinders off for a moment, I see a second atrocity perpetuated by the very people who should be exquisitely sensitive to the suffering of others. These people knew what it felt like to be ordered out of your home at gun point and forced to march into the night to unknown destinations or face execution on the spot. The people who displaced the Palestinians knew first hand what it means to watch your home in flames, to surrender everything dear to your heart at a moment's notice. Bulldozers levelled hundreds of villages, along with the remains of the village inhabitants, the old and the young. This was nothing new to the world.

Poland is a vast graveyard of the Jews of Europe. Israel is the final resting place of the massacred Palestinian people. A short distance from the memorial to the Jewish children lost to the holocaust in Europe there is a levelled parking lot. Under this parking lot is what's left of a once flourishing village and the bodies of men, women and children whose only crime was taking up needed space and not leaving graciously. This particular burial marker reads: "Public Parking".

I've talked with Palestinians. I have yet to meet a Palestinian who hasn't lost a member of their family to the Israeli Shoah, nor a Palestinian who cannot name a relative or friend languishing under inhumane conditions in an Israeli prison. Time and time again, Israel is cited for human rights violations to no avail. On a recent trip to Israel, I visited the refugee camps inhabited by a people who have waited 52 years in these 'temporary' camps to go home. Every Palestinian grandparent can tell you the name of their village, their street, and where the olive trees were planted. Their grandchildren may never have been home, but they can tell you where their great-grandfather lies buried and where the village well stood. The press has fostered the portrait of the Palestinian terrorist. But the victims who rose up against human indignity in the Warsaw Ghetto are called heroes. Those who lost their lives are called martyrs. The Palestinian who tosses a rock in desperation is a terrorist.

Two years ago I drove through Palestine and watched intricate sprinkler systems watering lush green lawns of Zionist settlers in their new condominium complexes, surrounded by armed guards and barbed wire in the midst of a Palestinian community where there was not adequate water to drink and the surrounding fields were sandy and dry. University professor Moshe Zimmerman reported in the Jerusalem Post (30 April, 1995), "The [Jewish] children of Hebron are just like Hitler's youth."

We Jews are suing for restitution, lost wages, compensation for homes, land, slave labour and back wages in Europe. Am I a traitor of a Jew for supporting the right of return of the Palestinian refugees to their birthplace and compensation for what was taken that cannot be returned?

The Jewish dead cannot be brought back to life and neither can the Palestinian massacred be resurrected. David Ben Gurion said, "Let us not ignore the truth among ourselves...politically, we are the aggressors and they defend themselves...The country is theirs, because they inhabit it, whereas we want to come here and settle down, and in their view we want to take away from them their country...".

Palestine is a land that has been occupied and emptied of its people. Its cultural and physical landmarks have been obliterated and replaced by tidy Hebrew signs. The history of a people was the first thing eradicated by the occupiers. The history of the indigenous people has been all but eradicated as though they never existed. And all this has been hailed by the world as a miraculous act of God. We must recognise that Israel's existence is not even a question of legality so much as it is an illegal fait accompli realised through the use of force while supported by the Western powers. The UN missions directed at Israel in attempting to correct its violations of have thus far been futile.

In Hertzl's 'The Jewish State' the father of Zionism said: "We must investigate and take possession of the new Jewish country by means of every modern expedient." I guess I agree with Ehud Barak (3 June 1998) when he said, "If I were a Palestinian, I'd also join a terror group." I'd go a step further perhaps. Rather than throwing little stones in desperation, I'd hurtle a boulder.

Hopefully, somewhere deep inside, every Jew of conscience knows that this was no war; that this was not G-d's restitution of the holy land to it's rightful owners. We know that a human atrocity was and continues to be perpetuated against an innocent people who couldn't come up with the arms and money to defend themselves against the western powers bent upon their demise as a people.

We cannot continue to say, "But what were we to do?" Zionism is not synonymous with Judaism. I wholly support the rally of the right of return of the Palestinian people.

Friday, January 02, 2009

2009 - Saya kena Tag!

The rule of being tagged is to answer promptly.

What were you doing 5 years ago?

January 2004? Wow ... Probably dreading / anticipating new semester? Sorry, My Dorry-3-seconds memory is taking control now.

What were the 5 things on your list to do today?
- Work
- Try to Work
- Try to at least do 10% of work
- Its January 2nd, work.
- Work?

What are the snacks that you enjoy?
- Cotton Candy
- Kuaci benih bunga matahari
- Mangga muda cicah kicap pedas
- Super Ring!!!
- Choki-Choki

What are 5 things that you do if you were a billionaire?
- Pay my debts.
- Pay my family member's debt.
- Buy a huge land and build a cool wooden house.
- Save in RM1million each for all my close family members before I spend the moolahs!
- Build a great shelter for less-fortunate kids - probably for those Chow Kids from Nur Salam shelter.

What 5 jobs you’ve had?
- Hostel's laundry agent
- Cyber Cafe shop assistant
- Trainee for Corporate Events & Sponsorship
- Communications & Publications Executive
- CSR Analyst

Who are the 5 person you want to tag?
- You, yes, the one reading right now!
- Jumping Jane a.k.a. Nadrah
- You.
- If you doubt the first 2 'you's are you, then, this one is YOU.
- Whoever feels left out and not among the above 4 people, then yes, can take this one as to be for them.